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Park Jae Beom, i hate to say this, but in fact he is now a former member of 2PM.

as a fan of Jay, i'm frustrated that JYP did not stop Jay from leaving the group and encourage him to be stronger to face all these, and i believe if he voice out, he got the power to stop him.

BUT,

if were to put aside my fangirl thoughts, once again i bow my head to JYP for the second time. Only JYP can write something like this, he wisely tells everyone, whether people who know Jay or not, a story and a different side of Jay that i believe it will leave a deep impression on the leader who had just sacrifice for sake of the group, and all the stupid netizens who contribute to his resign, and not to forget everyone who stand by him from the beginning.

Below are words and testimonials from fellow celebrities, media and not to forget 2PM members for Jay Park. Again, not as a fan of Jay i say, by reading all these, i believe it will somehow makes you realize something. This world is full of love but sometimes humans are just lack of something called forgiveness.

"we are not seven, we are ONE!" --- Jay Park and his fellow 2PM members.

"We're not seven members, we're ONE."
- 2PM Wooyoung

"Let's walk together."
- 2PM Chansung

"...In the wind, the fall came.
The scent of fall that suddenly came reminds me the memories.
The high blue sky is so pureI m getting tears whenever I see.
In the fall of 2009, even the sky makes me cry"
- 2PM Junsu

"The first song we practiced together..
We felt nervous and excited..
I always pray.
That it won't be such a hard journey..
I believe you will get stronger
because you're my brother."
- 2AM Jo Kwon

"My heart is hurting very much
My heart feels like its being torn apart because he is a dongseng that I love
Because I believe and love my dongseng I believe that he will return with a better appearance
Today my heart is hurting very much
Jaebeom, hyung will work harder so that when you return I can protect and hug you with a warmer embrace
Please return healthy
I love you....."
- Boom

More than 500 fans grieving at the airport because of Jay speedy decision on leaving the country as he felt really guilty.

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JYP Official letter to Jay:-

The reason why I helped Jaebum to make his debut

Many people were shocked when things Jaebum wrote to his friends four years ago went public. Of course his words were a basketful of shock. I, myself, would also have felt extreme anger and a sense of betrayal if it were another celebrity who wrote those words. However, for people like me who have known Jaebum for years, his words from the past don’t seem very surprising. Because we knew Jaebum was one of these kids.

Four years ago when he first came to Korea, Jaebum was a very offensive and twisted kid. He despised Korea, looked down on fellow trainees, contempted the staffs of the company, he even despised me. It seemed like he went so far as to despise the job of an entertainer. He was the kid that wanted to become a b-boy and breakdance on the streets, rather than becoming an entertainer. He countlessly argued with the staffs and trainers, and yet he was not afraid to say ‘you’ll have to pay for this’ towards the staffs after arguing. He also said he did not like the company, and requested for transfer to another company that he had picked out.

Most of all, what really stunned us was that when we asked if he felt confident of success, he answered “I have confidence in my success, only if I were not to sing to Mr. JYP’s music.” By this time, the staffs raised an objection against me, as for what reason I was keeping this kid who was so twisted and offensive. Because the situation in the past was this extreme, it didn’t seem very surprising to us that he used the words of that level in his personal letters to his best friend back then.

Then why was I keeping my eyes on this kid?

I like these kids that hate everything and act offensive, all thugged out. I do not like those malicious kids that act nice and kind infront of people, but are calculative behind our backs. However, I like the ones that are twisted and act offensive in people’s face. I believe that there’s hope when they make no disguise of their true feelings and express them. Jaebum looked down on everyone, including myself, and that could be seen on his face. And I liked that. Which artist of our company, which trainee of the company would even speak out ‘I have confidence in my success, only if I were not to sing to Mr. JYP’s music’? I found that very interesting. Most of these offensive kids have so much energy in them, but still they do not stand a chance at giving off that energy. And it is much less frequent that these kids meet the person who is reliable and can help to give off that energy. And so, I believed that if we reached out our hands, if he could build his trust in us, and if we could help him to enjoy performing on stage, there was a hope. Because I could see the talent in him deep down, wild and unpolished.

To Jaebum, there were only two types of people in the world; his family, and the ones that weren’t. Of anyone I’ve ever seen, he thinks the most of his family. Times when he talked about money in interviews, it was not because he wanted a fancy car, fancy clothes. It was only because he wanted to support his parents who were living a hard life. And that was the biggest motive that lead him to the job of singer. For that reason, he practiced and worked harder than anyone. His manners were not decent, but his practicing amounts were the best.

Seeing him like that, I thought to myself. ‘If it were possible to make him think much of the staffs, the fellow trainees, and even further, the people in Korea, as he thinks of his family, this kid would become a wonderful person.’ And so, oneday I talked to him. “Jaebum, family doesn’t always have to share blood. Please open your mind first, then others can also become family.” These efforts had built up bit by bit, and Jaebum started to change little by little. He started to warm up to the fellow trainees whom he ignored and made fun of for the reason that they were selected for their good looks. He started to share his personal feelings with the staffs, and he started to like performing on stage. His twisted face became brighter, and his dancing and singing started to shine out. Because he met music, and because he met great colleagues, his energy finally started to pour out towards the stage. At last, I decided to assist him make his debut, and chose him to be the leader of the team. The rest six truly relied on him, and gave in to him. After debut, he lead the members to practice after long and hard days of working, and the members always came first to him, than himself. When he began to work in the show industry, he was moved by the people of the show business who warmed up to him. And he was touched by the Korean fans that supported him with endless love. Because he had great people, great colleagues, great fans, and most of all, he had music, he finally changed.

However, unfortunately, like a scene from the movies, his twisted words from four years ago became public, just when he was about to become happy. He felt awfully sorry and regretful. To the members of 2PM, to me, to the staffs of the company, to the fans, and most of all, to Koreans who warmed up to him and made much of him. He said if he were to hesitate more, people would even start to dislike the 2PM members. And inspite of all, he said he lacked assurance to perform on stage. I could not hold him back as I knew well what he meant. Because I would’ve made the same decision as he did, if I were him. And he left. In the last email he wrote to me, he said ‘I’ve been a little punk in the past. I just want to let you know that it was a life changing experience. It made me a much better, much stronger person and I’m thankful for everything you had done for me. Real talk.’. It tore my heart apart. But because I also knew the betrayal people must’ve have felt from Jaebum’s past words, I could not let words out of my mouth, carelessly.

However, what I can say for sure is that what you have seen about Jaebum on TV was not a lie. He did misbehave, but he was never malicious. Because in the twisted past, he was not the kind of person that hides his innermost feelings, and he never is in the bright present. When he was misbehaving, he acted offensive in people’s face, and when he became warm, he was friendly to everyone from the bottom of his heart. The reason why I am writing this letter is not to turn back your anger. I understand well it is not something that could easily be changed. I am writing only with the hope that people would not give a cold glance at Jaebum whereever he goes.

As much as the anger of the public, I am well aware of the loss fans must suffer from, and I am listening to your words carefully. However, it seems what’s important is not Jaebum Park as a member of 2PM, but the person Jaebum Park himself. It seems now very important for Jaebum to look back over his life and reflect on his conduct. I hope that you would respect the decision Jaebum made, as much as I did.

Before I finish, I want to apologize to everyone once again.

JYP

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Jay's friend's testimonial -
http://tinyurl.com/n4shgv (high schmates and this touches me so much.)
http://tinyurl.com/qvun36 (a Korean friend)
http://tinyurl.com/r4zjmt (a States friend)

Hot Blood Writer -
http://tinyurl.com/lnm8zr

Wild Bunny Production Team -
http://tinyurl.com/od6nto

JYP Stylist -
http://tinyurl.com/n5zmyz

Ex Manager & a JYP Staff -
http://tinyurl.com/nwfpny

G.O.D Kim Tae Woo -
http://tinyurl.com/mnofpa

Koyote Bbaekga -
http://tinyurl.com/oynkwj

Back then before debut as a trainee of JYP HOT BLOOD show, together with OneDay members (2AM+2PM), where the boys sweat like no other and trained like they are in the military.

Korea fans who did a Post-Its project outside JYP centre.

Hottest's project - Post-Its of Love at JYP New York centre..

Park Jae Beom, someone whom i think always gave his best on stage to entertain all his audience even though it is not as perfect as some big names. But at least, he never failed to disappoint me, if not, i wouldn't put his name with Bi, the one and only best stage performer i admired before this.

Last but not least, myself as a fan of Jay, i want to see him back, whether or not as a leader of the group, I just want to see his charisma back on stage and screen. sigh.

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